Everyone be hatin’ on Lisa day :D

17 Aug

Before you read: This’ll be a bitchy, spiteful rant-filled post, so I suggest you mentally prepare yourselves. But I’ll try my best to keep it as low key as possible! Remember not to taking anything to heart (:

Have there ever been days where you felt the entire world was against you? Well, maybe not as overly dramatized as that, but you can’t help but feel incredibly shitty. There are never perfect days; waking up gracefully to a beautiful sunshine and enjoying the rest of your day. At least one thing has to go wrong, or else you’re life is just too fuckin’ perfect. A paper cut? No biggie. Woke up late? Ahh well, you could get over it. So although nothing is completely perfect, (I’m sure that could also be a flaw, and really creepy D;) your day could be pretty amazing overall.

Sometimes, there are days that are tailored to screw you over. Of course, there aren’t specific dates in the calendar,  [thank goodness!] but it just feels like it. Can you relate?

This has got to be one of my favourite days of the year. -____-”

The morning went rather nicely; waking up at 7:00 AM, after sleeping at 3:00 last night, all to prepare for the day ahead. I went ahead to wake myself up with a comfortable shower. Despite it being summer, I prefer hot showers. My morning shower? Freezing cold water. Thank you to whoever used up all the hot water that early in the morning.

Well, whatever. I think I could get used to cold showers anyway. Saving more energy= I’m doing something right. And that’s always a good thing. In return, I get to start my day in a really pissed off mood. At least dad is here to save the day! Right? He was kind enough to make breakfast for me. Awwh, that’s so sweet! I love you too, dad. I like fish. I like rice. And I even like vegetables. But I needed to hurry up and scarf down breakfast, to keep getting ready for the day. I hadn’t even picked up a proper outfit to wear, or even deal with the slowly curling hair of mine. Food is sacred. Everyone should put proper time aside to eat their meals; it helps you digest your food, helps to keep you more satisfied, and even lowers your blood pressure! [Unless you're eating some fatty, sugary, super salty meal, than you know, it'll probably still shoot very high] But life isn’t always kind. Whilst scarfing my food down, I ended up choking on the stringy, greeny, bitter vegetable. What the hell did I ever do? It’s not like I’m some 12 year old twerp who refuses to eat her vegetables. When they’re on my plate, I eat em’! No complaints. Hell, I even like them too! Don’t vegetables realized it’s hard enough to get people to like them? Why must they attempt to take the lives of the people who like them? Outrageous. >:

In case anyone was wondering, the big day I was planning for was meeting an old friend whom I haven’t seen for quite some time. And I miss her dearly :[

I successfully survived the sneak attack by my vegetables, but it they still had the upper hand. I was still super pissed, and easily aggravated. 'Maybe talking to someone other than myself could help to calm my nerves?' After confirming with another friend that we could both commute to the place, [Plenty of convincing and begging required] we we’re both stoked for the day. It’s always nice to reconnect with friends, cause everyone knows that our current friends always ended up boring us to death. xD Considering this is ‘Lisa’s Hate Day’, it’s obvious that these plans did follow through. Only five short minutes of excitement later, I recieve another call- a rather distressing one. Cancelled? No way. Are we that less important?  -sighs- Fine, fine.

Seeing as how plans that took effort to create were effortlessly destroyed, I decided that I might as well just take the rest of the day off. Let’s play video games! Oh right, I don’t have a Playstation memory card on my PS2, to play a PS1 game. In other words, I can’t play Final Fantasy 8 or 9 until I find a memory card. Or scrounge around and see if they even have them anymore. God, those things are really old. The one and only thing that could possibly lighten my mood? INTERNETTTTTT <3 Let’s watch some youtube videos! It goes from watching the ShayTards-> David Choi?-> Devil May Cry vids [recently got DMC4, yeahyeah] -> Anime shorts-> Vocaloid-> KURIAAAA<3 <3 That’s my highlight of today. Watching and finding new videos from NND singer Clear. Ahhh, such a sweet voice. It sounds soft and kind hearted, but has some oomph and strength that doesn’t put me to sleep. And it sounds hella sexy.

Based off the very few pictures I could find on the internet, this is how I would envision him <3

Several hours later, I started feeling hungry. “How about I make something super yummy, and make myself feel better?” I liek sammichs. Mhmm, taste good. Heading down to the kitchen, I start prepping my sandwich, and leave it in the grill to cook. I look up from the counter-outside was a freakin’ windstorm in my backyard. That super crappy tent/frame/plastic roof, was falling apart and crashing into the neighbors yard. I could’ve been and ass like, “Fuck that, it’s not my job to take care of it. And it’s definitely not my fault that they chose the shitty model!” but I suppose my conscience got the upper hand. I ran outside [without slippers, seeing as they're always missing] and attempted to stabilize the tent. It’s really a lot harder than it looks, considering I’m about 20x smaller than that thing!

I was literally hanging on the bars, trying to hold it down, and prevent it from flying into the neighbor’s yard.

A good hour of strenuous work, and plenty of cussing from my yard. Whether it was the fact that we had a really crappy tent we didn’t use, or the fact that I was barefoot out on the gravel, I was ready to rip someone’s head off!  Unnecessary work and troubles aggravate me the most. Should I really go to the extra trouble? Sigh, I really can’t leave it alone though. But does anyone remember that sandwich I left on the grill? So maybe I didn’t keep it there the entire hour, [My fire alarm would've been going insane] but I only realized halfway through my adventure outside that I had left my sandwich alone. A darker than I wanted sandwich, but still very yummy looking. Put this on a plate… shit, I just touched the grill. Cool water, cool water… Okay! Put it on a shiny, clean plate, and let’s go enjoy this sammich. Three steps out of my kitchen, I trip over myself, [or air, or even my kitty] and I drop my sandwich straight on the carpet. It could’ve(?) been saved had it been hardwood, but no, carpet is cheaper. It always collects dust, hair, and the little pieces of lint- finally ruining my sandwich. Well, that was fun. It looks so appetizing.

OM NOM NOM NOM – so good (:

Regarding the tent, the first time around, I got it stand up properly. But it only took mother nature a couple of minutes to knock it down again. I was like, “Fuck this, I’ll break it before nature gets to it!” So I started disassembling it. You’d think, this cheaply made tent could probably be easily disassembled, considering it’s plastic and like, mosquito net. But no! The legs that should be deep in the ground are hella weak, which is why it ended up sideways on the ground. The actual framework is sturdy, and is a complete bitch to take apart.

I hope this illustration helps to guide you. So the designers of the shitty tent decided, “If we’re gonna have one sturdy part in this entire thing, we might as well make it fool proof” By ‘fool proof’ they simply mean sticking Stick A into Stick B. [penetration!] Of course, that wouldn’t make it fool proof; rather it’d be susceptible to loosening and falling apart. So that’s where the narrow piece of metal is there. It acts as a lock for Stick A to stay in Stick B’s hole. [LOLOLOL] By doing this, the two poles shouldn’t be separated very easily. And it’s true! As I mentioned, the little piece of metal on Stick A is quite narrow, as well as difficult to push under with your thumb. My entire left hand cannot grasp, and all my fingertips feel like they have black eyes. That narrow piece of metal feels like it’s digging whilst you’re trying to press down on it and release the lock.  Sure, it’s fool proof, but not all of us have fingers of steel. It would’ve been nice if the metal didn’t make all those scratchy noises when they rubbed against each other. Lighting more fire to my flames. :/

What do 6 year old little cynical girls like me do when they’re trapped in their own homes? [Or halfway up in the air] I’ve forgotten to mention, I’ve been dealing with a nasty cold for the last couple of days. Maybe it’s just me being reluctant, but I didn’t want to admit that I got sick during the summer. Truth be told, I blame it on my mouth wash. I don’t use it everyday, but whenever I do, I get a weird tingling that doesn’t sit well in my throat. That leads me to make weird cackling sounds, followed by sore throats, and somehow the sniffles start approaching as well. I should remind myself that everytime I reach for some of that super alcoholic and painful Listerene, I should just avoid it. Screw bad breath, I’ll just brush my teeth and drink juice. Speaking of which, the only juice we seem to have in the house are incredibly sour. My odd middle-aged man tastes don’t enjoy the extreme sour. Or sweet. Or anything extreme at all. First time drinking the cranberry juice with my sore throat= I would rather have the Listerene in my eyes than ever try that again. It even made me cry! But I needed juice. I needed something that contained some sort of vitamins; not just cold water all day long.

Although it’s never really recommended, after a random striking pain in my right thumb, I decided to check into it. I avoided all those Google hits about carpal tunnel syndrome because it just seems like everyone has it. Pfft, whatever. So typical. Sure I get wrist pains, but it’s my thumb that worries me more. I can’t use a pen or eat with chopsticks without feeling the random pain. -sigh- So, don’t correct me if I’m wrong, BUT I BE BELIEVIN’ I GOTS TENDONITIS. YAAR? MAYBE. Overused thumbs, poor them. Maybe next time I decided to see the doctor, I’ll ask her about it. That is, if I can get it in before she starts yelling at me. QQ

^ I think I can officially label this day a fail. Except of course Clear <3. And that it inspired me to write on my blog. [To further the pains in my wrists and thumbs, yeah!] But oh well, I had lots of fun drawing these weird cartoons, and perhaps I’ll keep it up? Shitty, shitty, shitty drawings.

Boooooogers! I gots lots of em’! I be snifflin’ all day long, till I gots some nasty sore throat and a cacklin’ hacky cough. Oh yeah, I just don’t know when to accept the truth.

Stay safe kids!

Durarara!! [Drrrrr--!?]

26 Jun

Embrace thy summer! It’s finally here! We’ve been dreaming for the days of pure relaxation and self-indulgence to come, especially after some stressful times. Summer opens the opportunity for new beginnings and adventures for us all. :]

Kay, well, not me, but whatever. [Not whatever! ;___;\\] I’m much too afraid about being bored this summer, I don’t even want to go outside. Oh god, that’s how scared I am? Pretty contradictory :/ I guess I’ll have to find my own way.

Well, for now, I’ve taken up anime again–! Well, only one series, and I already finished… damn.

I could never fully become one of those intense anime otakus, gosh, it seems like so much work. Aside from the collecting and the events planning, the very idea of watching anime is already pretty painful! Maybe it’s just me, but I think anime is just way too long. Especially when it’s based off a popular manga, the span of one episode (22 mins) for like 1 chapter (roughly 15-30 pgs) It’s so freakin’ slow and boring, I kinda feel like dying. But in the end [most of the time] the anime still ends up lacking from the manga, so it’s rather ironic. :/

But!! Thankfully, this one particular anime has brought a smile upon my face, and I wasn’t terribly bored watching. ;D

DURARARARARARARARARARARARAARARARARARARARAAAAaaaaaaaa….

^What a weird name, amirite? Oh, but such a silly comic has become such a great novel to read. [Novels>Manga>Anime] Durarara is interesting because of its story-telling style, and very “unique” personalities. Besides the interesting tale of a young country boy coming to the big city (yawn) the unfolding of the truth and story behind each of the people is what really draws me in. I suppose the insanity in each of them is pretty cool.

Ryuugamine Mikado [country bumpkin] acts too innocent and naive; it almost breaks my heart. Sometimes I wonder when he’s gonna unleash those, ‘serious face moments where I start to question my morality’ kinda thing. But even though he doesn’t have a lot of those, it’s really exciting to see when he starts- typing up fake forum posts to give himself company, hrhr. What’s even better though is the extreme personality change. It’s funny to see the irony in Shizuo, him being all aggressive and violent, but truly kind at heart, but with Mikado, it just gets scary. Who knew the boy could have such a cold and dark streak?!

Kida Masaomi- OMG, CUTE CUTE CUTE~ He’s so cute! He’s like one of those, super smiley and upbeat types who just make everyone else feel comfortable. ///. He’s got more of a ‘normal human-like’ personality than Mikado ^ [Atleast, from what I've read in the novels] either super flirty, super funny, or that emo mood. Maan! Emo mood? Mhmm, those, ‘I lack confidence in myself’, kind of things. Oh man, those are really annoying, but seeing Masaomi being the wannabe hero is pretty cute <3 <3 <3

Heiwajima Shizuo? I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to write paragraphs and paragraphs about him. Haha. I’ve really got a thing for blondies. He’s not the , ‘omg, cute cute cute <3′ but the ‘AHAHA, VENDING MACHINE TO THE FACE!’ kinda cute [: The violent and easily angered look he often has, has a sort of weird charm. [So not promoting violence here] He could probably be seen as a huge block head, especially when he’s compared to Izaya, but the fact that his true personality is the opposite of what is normally seen is pretty cool. The misunderstood cool guy? Purple shades and a cigarette is all it takes to hide your inner self! -cry cry- He’s at his best when he’s either perfectly calm, or in the middle of a rage ;D

Orihara Izaya: It’s like a love-hate relationship! [Him and the world that is] Probably one of the more loved characters, because of his pure psychotic-ness. But who doesn’t love extreme sadists like him? I sure do enjoy watching him when he’s plotting or revealing his latest disaster. Better yet? When he’s toying with Shizuo, pulling that all that psychological warfare on him, only to see that it doesn’t even work. I like how he’s twisted and smiles creepily, but at the same time, you have to hate him! When he uses those twisted words against some of the other characters to push them into those bad situation, you really, really want to punch him! It’s like, you son of a ——, how could you!? You did this all on purpose,  so mean! ]: What I like most is seeing smug personalities like him getting their asses kicked. Just desserts? Srsly. When he’s either getting pwned physically or verbally, I think any is fine with this sicko. Omg, but what a cool sicko. o.o

^Geez, I think I did this just to talk about Izaya. And I thought I liked Kida and Shizu better ;___;” But, Celty is still the coolest. And the most sane out of the group :o

Motivational advice?

When all else fails, and everyone seems to hate you, just remember, IZAYA STILL LOVES YOU –!! <3 <3 <3 The psychotic sadist who claims to love all humans by hurting and messing with their heads. Oh yes! ;D

Says FML x10

13 Jun

It’s exam time, isn’t everyone excited? I know I am, taking 8 of em’ at once–! <3

But, even though physics is being strangely too easy, and quadratic functions just won’t sink in, I’m kinda worried about something else.

I was daydreaming this morning, (Avoiding having to study D: ) when I thought about kindergarten all of a sudden. I remembered some really weird memories back then. Man, thinking about how I looked, I was pretty freakin’ messed up. XD But hey, no one noticed right…? Oh god, my childhood, it needs to stay hidden OTL

So, I remembered one of my good friends from back then, and I was like, oh hey, lemme see if I can find him on Facebook. I think I remember his last name… I look it up, and there’s only one entry for this white kid. Oooookay? Atleast it’s somewhat right. D: Why the hell not try adding him? We’ll see what happens ^___^”

I was prepared for some long ass wait, cause it didn’t seem this account ever logged into Facebook very much. Well, it was a lot sooner than I thought. Next step in confirming it’s a long lost childhood friend? Check his friends out. Well! I don’t recognize any of these people, well maybe one girl sounds familiar. -scroll, scroll so more- OH SHT NO SHT. I RECOGNIZE THAT GIRL. OH GOD, OH SHT LOL. I THINK I HAVE THE RIGHT PERSON. CRAAAP!

Should I even be saying crap? Shouldn’t this be exciting?! Haha, not for me. This is kinda nerve wracking. Could this be? A childhood friend from so long ago? Yeah, this is pretty cool, thanks Facebook! Connecting the world, once again D:

Anyways, I’ma leave a msg and see what happens. Who knows, I could very well be wrong. (Hope not!)

So while everyone is freakin’ over their exams, I have double the worries on my mind, haha.

-FML, FML, FML, FML, FML, FML, FML, FML, FML, FML–!

New Look? :3

16 May

Looks really open! That dark blue and white was pretty painful for the eyes, (Atleast, in comparison to this light pink ;D)

The fresher look suits May, all bright and light and whatnot. I think it could potentially help to lighten my mood o: Seeing as how it’s been pretty dark. Well! This is not the time for me to be relaxing and be chill. I’ve got 101 things to work on, so I really should be worried! Yay for exams? o;

I’m planning for a ghetto Alice in Wonderland stop motion today D: Please, please, please tell me my friends aren’t going to be reluctant—!!   ‘—’\\

^ I really am looking forward to it, and of course, I’ll be updating it as soon as I’m done. (Unless it looks really bad, then you know T___T” 30% of my final grade, good bye!)

I’ve been thinking of making a tumblr. But everyone seems to have one now, and I feel really weird if I made one now. D: But it looks a lot more simple and clean, in comparison to this messy blog. :x We’ll see, I’ll join the next self-blogging-really-annoying-cheesy site I see!

-edit-

Inspirational stop motion video. So well done, it kinda makes me wanna cry. ;__;”

-Get back to work, you damn kids!

Scared.

1 May

I really hate being scared. Really.

I feel so weak and unable. I can’t do a thing in the world, cause my whole body is frozen. I want to go that extra mile and prove myself, but that fear just holds me back. Sht man sht,I hate being scared.

I’ve missed so many chances in my life; in the end, I’m left to regret about them everyday. ‘Maybe, if I had paid more attention to that person, or spent the time to know that person, I would’ve been happier.’ If I had taken the initiative at that time, I wouldn’t feel like this right now.

What I hate even more is how this cowardice is affecting every aspect of my life. With people I meet, to issues that matter, and even my hobbies. Everything I enjoy, I can’t enjoy to the fullest- I’m just too scared. I just make up excuses to myself and others for not being able to go there and do that, and look here, we have a liar and a scaredy-cat. A perfect combination. Someone who’ll never leave their shell and lie to keep on going.

Just so you know, I only started to want to write this up when I was working on a picture. I was looking at it thinking, ‘Yeeeeah! It’s looking pretty good. :D Ahh—! But I wish I could do something to make it more… awesome.’ As soon as I tried adding a whole new color, I freaked out and went over it, making sure it was like it never existed. I didn’t even give it a chance in the picture, and now when I look at the spot with the color, I get angry. Why couldn’t I just leave it there, and see how it turned out? Cause I’m a fucking scaredy cat. And it really pisses me off.

Why can’t I just be more expressive? ‘I really, really dislike you, so please go away,’ or ‘I really like you, please stay longer!’ I wish I was a little more black and white about everything, cause right now, everything is a sad blur. (Oh, so emo sounding XD) Sure, some people complain that maybe their too blunt about everything, and I understand how that can go so wrong, but it sure looks a lot better than being so scared about everything. Talk about paranoid. >__>”

Even now I’m being scared. I can’t even talk about this with anyone IRL, cause of course, I’m too afraid. In the end, I just giving people an idea of myself that I probably really aren’t..? [Bad sentence, gotta reword that, LOL] [In the end, everyone looks at me as something I'm not, THERE!] Some people might see me as confident, and I’m so far from that. Some might see me as totally out there in my own world, but no, I’m much more down to earth than you think. My annoying habit of barely talking and understanding people makes it so hard for me to portray the right message. What do I get out of all this? A bunch of regrets.

And even though I know all this, I seem to barely try. I want to try, I try to try, but it doesn’t seem very effective. Everything just feels the same, or even worse, it’s all going in the wrong direction. I’m being more and more alienated from everything and everyone I love. Greaaaaat. Way to start life, amrite?

I’ll keep on trying, for the sake of myself, and I can only stat positive about all this. I want to stop beating myself up over this, but old habits really die hard. But I know that at the very least, if someone else is trying really out there, than maybe I can too. Maybe I can get over being scared, and just be comfortable with my life. Maybe.

[Today, I'm gonna spend the day with my mommy. It might not sound weird, but if you know anything about me, it really is. Seeing as how, for maybe twelve years of my life, I was scared shitless of her. How I used to, and still can't feel comfortable with her. I want to take this chance and prove to her that I really do love her, and I can be a good daughter. Here's to my chance!]

-No emo love for you! :D

List of the most BS things in the world. :D

31 Mar

Yuup, there  will always be things to piss us off and screw with our heads. Or, their so outrageously stupid, it’s funny. Let’s make a list :]

1.   Sociologists.

‘Look at me! I’ve got my doctorate in sociology, all for looking at people and writing down what they do. YUSS. I’MA DOCTOR, WHAT NOW.’

If you can BS your way through anything and anyone, as well as like to write long, long papers, I think you just might like this field.

“Methodological observation of the sociometrical behavior tendencies of prematurated isolates indicates that
a causal relationship exists between groundward tropism and lachrymatory behavior forms.”

Aka

Children cry when they fall.

No shit, Sherlock. (Highlighted the key terms, cause you know, some people just don’t get it. ヾ(・∀・。) )

Finally! What a win >3<''

24 Mar

Lately, I’ve been reading this super super cute manga, Kimi ni Todoke, with the most innocent, sweet, and most relate-able  story lines ever. D: Kay, well, maybe it’s a bit idealistic, but all girly shoujos are like that.

The super dense (but adorable and comical) couple, Sawako and Kazehaya finally, finally, finallllllllllllllllllllly, get together. Geez, I’ve waited, what, 10 volumes for this? Sure, the actual, serious moment was very predictable and a little cliche, but this wasn’t ^__^

Gotta love Kazehaya’s  [ ''OTL ] moment. I swear though, if the audience in the background were face palming themselves, this would be the sht :D

As sad as it is, I think I’m getting the hand of drawing and coloring on the computer. :] No moar buying pencil crayons. ^__^b   Ahh, I just gotta worry about my eyesight though. Oh, but of course, not everything is a happy thing. Recently, my printer died, and I was stranded for a while. Whatever, if I need to print my paper, I got the library. Well, the library doesn’t really scan, (Atleast, not or free :/ ) and it’s not really handy for me to scan some pictures~ My printer was one of those 3-in-1 kinds that do the print, fax, and scan, but it’s a total ass. Now, let’s all think for a second. I understand that printing and faxing require ink, but for freakin’ sakes, I’d like to scan pls.

‘Please insert a new ink cartridge!’

‘Process cannot be complete. Please insert a new ink cartridge!’

You know what? Faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack youuuuu. Holy sht, I just want to scan! Must you be such an ass? So now, I’ve got this huge chunky printer, on my bedroom floor, sitting as a potential threat when I wake up in the morning. One o these days, I’ma trip or injure myself with that thing. ”OTL Why so big? :/ I can’t really keep it anywhere but the floor.

What I hate most is when my keys aren’t working. Last couple times it happened, letters like ‘S’ or ‘A’ or ‘E’ were affected, so I was really pissed. Now, it’s the letter ‘F’, and for the first time, I’m realizing my dependence on it. Yeah, that’s right. I’ve got to change up some wording so I don’t use it. ( I was gonna say like; ‘The letter be-…. no never mind,’ but it needs an …) LOL. SEE. I have to stab my keyboard, pressing really hard on that letter, just so it’d work. Without you F, I can’t swear as much. Fine, I’ll swear with words that don’t need you, and I’ll deal on my own. T___T

RAWRMMPPHHGBIEEEFFFFFFFFFFFF.. :3

Traps. They’re scary.

1 Mar

Edit! I’m at fault for not listening to warnings and judging something without fully listening to it. SEKIHAN~~ The cute little maid in this video. Watch about until 1:30, cause that’s where things get scary. XD

And I thought men who were extremely cute and singing like girls were scary. D:

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TRAAAAPS.

They’re usually bad, y’know like falling for some prank ployed by prick you know. Other times, traps are kinda good? I actually can’t even think of a time when one is good, (if you’re the one falling for it) so yeah.

But hey, some people like traps. For instance, fangirls.

When you urban dictionary ‘trap’ you either get 1) an area where drugs are dealt, or the definition I’m going for, one scary as hell man who passes off as a woman.

Trap of the day/week/month for me? Freakin’ tie between Piko and Sekihan. AHHH MAH GAWD.

(Last time it was Valshe, then Amu :D )

Btw, for those of you who don’t know, I started getting into listening Vocaloid songs. I’d love to explain it, but in another post I suppose. (We’re talking about traps >;O) Nico Nico Douga is pretty much an asian Youtube, and they have lots and lots of popular, but amateur singers there. I’d feel horrible to refer to them as just ‘amateurs’, but they aren’t pro or like crazy crazy famous. o.o Heck, I barely know what some of them look like!

Anyways, amongst the Nico Nico Douga family, there are a bunch of singers who sing Vocaloid songs (Oh, so awesome) and one of the more prominent ones are either: Multi-talented gorgeous ones like Choucho, have sexy voices like Clear and Dasoku, or are freakin’ traps like Piko and Amu.

These traps, although we’re not looking at them when they sing, have some of the scariest voice ranges known. D:

Kay, I thought Amu and Valshe we’re pretty interesting, cause Amu is a boy who sings high like a girl, and Valshe can do the opposite . o.o”

But after coming across my first Magnet song, (Hitori and che:Sakurai version, the very best cover) I was like, SHT MAN SHT. Don’t lie to me and say that all four singers are sung by two girls?! Scary, scary, super awesome. O____O”

After that, I think I came across a song by Piko, it was a screamo-type song, unfortunately I didn’t download it (10 minutes long, oh shiet)

I got a little more interested in him, so I listened to his version of Magnet with Sekihan, and that’s where I got REALLY uncomfortable. Those two can make any girl feel insecure. ;___;”

Well, Piko does sound pretty androgynous all the time anyways, but SEKIHAN. SEKIHAAAAAAAAAAAAN. He is byfar, the scariest person I’ve ever heard speak!

At the beginning, he sounds like a deep voiced PEDOOOOO. Like, ‘I’m gonna eat you alive >;D’ kind of voice. Then, in the second verse, he goes to play Miku’s role, and he seriously sounds like a 10 year old girl. I want to know how a grown ass man sounds like a deep voiced pedo one minute, and a little girl the next?! It’s freakin’ mind boggling! In some of his other videos, (where we actually see him singing live, he looks like a girl D: ) like Mrs. Pumpkin, he goes, ‘Are you ready booooys and giiiirls?’ LIKE A REAL PEDO. IT’S SO FUNNY. In another video, he cosplays as a cute maid, and is singing like ‘Ready? Set? Goooo! Kii pii pii pii pii de rooo!’ all cutesy, and it’s like, sht, he looks and sounds like a cute girl. Many boys must be disappointed deep down.

Looking at Piko IRL isn’t so bad, I mean I imagined he’d be short and kinda girly, but he isn’t so much compared to others. He’s like, tall and kinda lanky looking. Serious emo cut going on too. But that’s okay, he sounds wonderful all the same. Freakin’ trap, he’s lucky to have a ‘normal’ voice too. Not too deep, not high, he actually sounds like a guy D:[A very good looking one (;   ]

Can you imagine having a voice like Sekihan? It must be so fun! I mean, he could play pranks on the cops all day.

Girl Voice:   ‘Aaaah! Help, 911 there’s a pervert in my house ;____;\\ ‘

Pedo Voice:  ‘Oh ho ho ho, don’t try to run little girl, I’m gonna get youuuuuuuuu… >;D ‘

GV:  ‘Kyaaa! Please help me!’

PV:  ‘Mwhahaha!’

I know I’d be doing that if I could alter my voice so much. D: It’d making calling people fun again! Kids nowadays all text message and IM eachother, it’s kinda lame XD. I mean, you could pretend to be someone so easily by copying their writing style. :/ A little bit of good improv, maybe even some studying, there ya go, the name’s Brad Pitt or something.

Ahhh, traaaps, they’re very amusing for me. I like Vocaloid songs in general :], cause they got a wee bit more depth, (And stories!) than most songs anyways. No, I don’t mean to say that western songs are shallow and dry, they’re not! If it makes anyone happy, quite a few asian songs are just as shallow and dry. One just needs to look beyond the set standards of music, and find some interesting ones that reach to you you, not the ‘I’ma follow whatever else people listen to’ I just so happen to like ones sung by robots. And their human cover counterparts. ;D

OH, but I must mention this now.

It’s nice that one doesn’t listen to mainstream, but what I hate equally as much as that, are people who are all, how do I say this…, pricks? Like, they have their lines all set up,

‘I’m listening to this unknown european band that no one has ever heard of, and I’m so cool that I listen to something other than mainstream.’

You know what? Go fuck yourself. People like that are so freakin’ annoying. It’s like, they search far and wide for (usually) shitty ass bands no one knows, and promotes them like their gods. For me, I don’t care if it’s mainstream or totally random, if it sounds good, it’s good for me. I’ll grow tired sure, but I don’t usually get tired for a long time (considering that I replay the song over and over on a short playlist :D ) means that I choose songs I enjoy and like, have some sort of depth and interest to me. Like Just Be Friends, originally sung by Megurine Luka. At first, it has a catchy beat, kinda on the techno side, which I’m not usually on, but it caught me anyways. And the lyrics? We’re not talking about some random singer/band singing about something really weird, like ‘yellow rivers or some stupid shit’ but it’s a break up song. FROM THE GUYS POV, yeeeah! No, it’s not all whiny like, ‘Why’d you leave meeeee, cry cry’ or ‘I’m so much better off without you, pfft’ but rather, realization about self and your relationship. And the whole techno beat makes it interesting. Break up songs tend to be slow, heartfelt ballads, which are nice, but kinda overused. But hey, if you do a good job, no one should complain right? At least I won’t, there’s always those stupid pricks surfing around, thinking their the shit. Again, go fuck yourself.

Now, I can’t be the one who’s always pointing fingers and looking down on others, I admit to tending to be like some of the people mentioned above. Well, maybe not the prick one, but definitely the one who just downloaded anything that sounded ‘good’. Course, my judgement and attention span was a lot lower back then, but I made a couple of good choices! This isn’t a warning for younger readers to be all, ‘okay, I’ll grow up like Lisa and not be prejudiced about things like this,’ no you’ve got to experience this. It’s all in growing up! Live and learn these things, and admit to your humility when it is right. I’m just writing this so that you know for sure, one day, you’ll look back and laugh, rather than be ignorant and continue on the prick/sheep path you’ll be on. It may not be music, but something similiar. Clothing? Books? TV? Iono, go look around.

It’s unfortunate, I know quite a few people who are like this. Some who are shallow and go for any song they know/hear, or ones who act all high and mighty and listen to some really lame ass songs. It’s depressing yeah, but what can you do? Me, as long as you don’t ramble about it, or have me listen to that bull sht, we’re okay.

I love how my posts go from something happy sounding, like ‘CUTE CUTE BUT SCARY TRAPS!’ to some sort of life lesson thing. Mostly, I write this on a whim, I don’t really have anything planned out or anything. So it often is disorganized, and I mix different topics together. But I like my writing style; I can build a bridge between topics, and I think that’s a great skill to have.

I should get to bed, I’ve got two tests to write tomorrow, one for freakin’ religion. Why oh why can’t we have it open book anymore? T___T”

=Boosting my own confidence level, that’s so lame. LOL

I just lost my heart today.

22 Feb

Edit: I’m learning spanish! Say whaaaaaaa? Well, I’m definitely trying, don’t go testing what I’ve learned. ;___;

Mooooo whoooo eeeeeeh raaaaae. MUJER ! I’ve got the best damn accent ever. ;D

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It’s just so sad. For one second, one brief, but oh so sweet and loving moment, I was happy.

http://www.sigelectronics.com/PC-Mac-Hardware/Wacom-Monitors/Wacom-Cintiq-21UX-21-3-LCD-Tablet-USB-1600×1200-UXGA-resolution-4001-250cd-m2

Oh go fuck yourself. Fucking $2,000?

Watching that video in the link above, I was like ‘Sht, that’s amazing.’ -cry cry- I’d be crying if I got the chance to use it. ”OTL

I don’t mind using normal tablets, but I just find it kind of awkward. Maybe I haven’t used one long enough to get used, or maybe…

I just like being able to see my pen move while I draw.

More comfortable. PLUS, THAT THING IS FREAKIN’ PORTABLE. Go outside, color something up pretty, bring it home and upload it. SHT SHT SHT.

Maaaaaan, I can’t even focus anymore. It’s one of those things everyone experiences. I just happen to experience it a lot. You see something on the internet or on TV that just looks like the sht. You’re like, ‘OH GOD, I HAVE TO HAVE IT.’ Must… nag… parents to buy it for Christmas. Course, depending on the type of person you are, you may or may not even get it. By the time you get it and use it, you’re probably already tired. XD

Me? I’m gonna obsess over that thing for about a couple more days, give up, and say, ‘If it was really important to me, I’d freakin’ write it down for good.’ I don’t think I’m gonna do that, but I sure as hell will book mark it! Something to look forward to, when and if I get a job. Huuumm.. Job…

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So yeah, my heart’s been breaking slowly by slowly, and that digital tablet made things worse! T____T. OH, HOW MUCH I LONG TO EMBRACE YOU WITHIN MY ARMS. A graceful touch, and you’re all mine. Whispering words of excitement, we hurry to lose what’s called our ‘innocence’

[That's freaking kinky! XD] Play along, you know you like it. :]

-Feeling like one of those weird teenagers complaining about everything. Gotta fix that.

Sooo late!

7 Feb

Man, don’t you hate it when work just comes all at once? Geez, some people gotta learn how to spread things out, rather than pack this upcoming week with multiple tests, projects, and essays! No compassion whatsoever, eh?

All day, I tried to finish SOMETHING, but alas, the only thing I could actually finish was the damned English essay. Oh yes, Edward Sexy Cullen is definitely the shittiest boyfriend out there, watch out for his type!

Here’s a little exert from my essay. Harumph. I can’t believe I put sultry and seductive. BUT HEY, I WAS GONNA PUT ‘SEXAYYYYYY’ ON WHEELS?! AHH YEEEEEEEAH!

‘The lead male, Edward Cullen, is the sultry and seductive vampire who is looking for his “one”, like the rest of his family. Although he is depicted as incredibly handsome and passionate about his love, Bella Swan, he is not the ideal man; he should not be used as a standard for the rest of the males in society.’

I would actually feel more kinky and awkward writing this if I was defending him, thank god I couldn’t! To be honest, I had more negative that positive comments, and hey, its easier to make the negative sound funny than the positive. (:

Anyways, it’s almost 5 now, shit, I gotta finish that other essay, and study for a couple tests. It’s kinda fun, isn’t it?

-Drinks coffee- IIGHT, I’MA KEEP GOIN’ !! FIGHTING !!

-plays iTunes- aaaah shiet. Clear, don’t sing like that, it strikes the hearts of thousands of fangirls like a thunder clap. ‘^’~

Ahh! Watch Spice by Kagamine Len. I’m not one who’s usually up for these kinda things, but hey, I’m in a funny mood. (And if you didn’t know, that voice isn’t a real person’s voice. o.o”)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wt5HmAzHn8

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